Wednesday, May 19, 2004

Dreams

I was supposed to start work as a data entry clerk yesterday, when i reached there for the briefing, i was told that they would not take me anymore as they had enough people. Fine, but the thing is they had already confirmed with me that i got the job and CONFIRMED that i would start work on monday, i even called the agency a few times to double confirm. Empty promises... shucks... I could have taken another job.... income gone.. need to find another job, boring........


I had a wierd and nice dream just now, dreamt that i was in school, i can't remember the school but it was come sort of mix between secondary and tertiary; we wore our own clothes but classes were held on a fixed timetable in a fixed classroom. The classroom was very spacious and special but dreamy, like what i would expect in a dream haha. I think the doors were inaccesible because i remembered i went into the class by climbing through the windows. Saw a few familiar faces. A few of my secondary classmates were in the same class, they were gossiping and chatting as usual, the teacher for the period was not here yet. I made cheeky expressions to some who seemed surprised to see me and took a seat at the 3rd or fourth row. The table i took, there were no adjacent tables joined to it, just a single table and a lonely chair.

There was this girl sitting alone in front of me, somehow i saw that she looked familiar and quite pretty. She had this jap hairstyle, near-shoulder length hair, dark chocolate brown highlights with irregular fringes, wispy hair, very nice in an abstract sort of way.

I kept looking at this vaguely familiar and attractive girl, until the teacher came in. I can't remember the name of the teacher in my dream, the appearance of the teacher, nor the subject that was taught, only that the teacher was male.

My attention was focused on the stranger sitting in front of me. Then the scene skipped, and i was talking to her. She introduced herself as Chen Shufang. "Chen Shufang...." oh! She was a primary school classmate. We used to play this slapping game in class. I used to tease her constantly, and she would slap me and i would become angry and slap her back, making her cry. Haha. Kids... It was with great pleasure and surprise that i realized her identity. She remembered me too. I was so exicted i was beaming all the while. I ruffled her hair to make sure she was real, and touched her face, asked her whether the slap was still painful. Then i realized how smooth her skin was, and how delicate and beautiful her features were, she still looked the same but somehow became prettier. I think in the dream i fell in love with her. We chatted about old times as if the teacher and class was non-existant. That's the good part about dreams, the settings that were no longer need will fade away by themselves. I was carressing her face, gazing at her dreamily when my handphone rang, I stood up from the seat and took out my handphone, the alarm was ringing and the time was 12:50.

I turned back and saw my unkempt bed, still holding the ringing handphone. Shufang was gone. The classroom was gone. I'm standing in my bedroom, awoken by the alarm that i set with my own fingers.

Exasperated and devastated, i went to sleep again in search of my lost dream. Drifted in and out of dreamland, but no class, and no shufang. Gave up finally and woke up at 3:20. Damn dreams.

If you had a dream, what will you dream for, my friend?

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Saturday, May 15, 2004

I'm impressed!

Went to party world ktv at clementi today with Simon, Alex, tianhong and worm. Simon gf liyan joined us later. Wow, alex's singing... I'M IMPRESSED!

Xiaowen biaomei, someone i've not seen for v v v v long, sent me an email today. I took the test and got the following results:

Part 1
priorities in your life:
1)Career 2)Love 3)Money 4)Family 5)Pride

Part 2
Description of my personality: Soulful
Description of my partner: Graceful
Description of my enemies: Sneaky
Description of how i interpret sex: Aromatic

Part 3
Description of my life: Free
Someone i will never forget:Huili
Someone i consider my true friend: Simon goh
Someone i truely love: Chung li (huh?? wtf!)
My twin soul: Xinyan Choong
Someone i will remember for the rest my my life: Gigi

Hmm...... 1st 2 parts are quite accurate i think, anyone wants e email? Juz drop me a msg =]

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Wednesday, May 12, 2004

Recap: Fri-today

Last Friday was a boring day as usual, so i proceeded to worm's hse as usual, played magic cards and marvelled about the complexities of the champion deck till morning. Sat was guitar practice as usual, after that Jason came to meet me at woodlands at about 6pm, the four Dragonkings were supposed to meet up for drinks but Penaking kena saboed by his buddy and had to cover his guard duty. Rashid the Biceps king meanwhile was engaged in his NDP rehersal and so Jason, the Guru of SnF and little common me, we stoned around woodlands until 11:30pm where we met Rashid at his hse for drinks. The subject for test today is Chivas Regal 12, which is meant to be comsumed on the rocks or at best with some soda water. Rashid drank quite some, i drank only a little, because didn't really had the mood for drinks that night. Jason drank the most, after 3 continuous games of "Bluff", he started morphing from a high and mighty Dragonking(before drinks) to a cooked lobster(all red). =~D


The following morning we went directly to Sunlight ktv with Shawn and Air hong for early bird package, after which we took 190 to CCK CC to shoot some hoops with JianTing, his uncle and WQ joining us. Fought them 5vs5, was a exhausting day indeed. Due to the low frequency of exercising nowadays, i resulted with leg cramps and backache the following day after, Monday. Slept at 2pm, woke up at 10:40am, then quickly rushed down to meet double Es, Enen and Eddy for early bird ktv, had no energy that day, realized i had no "qi", must have exhausted my "qi" playing 5vs5 bball haha. Anywaz the package was very cheap! $5/person for 11am-2pm, inclusive of a delifrance Pastry. After tt watched Van Helsin with Eddy at JEC, v nicely done vampire morphing effects, plus good plot. I'll give it 4/5 stars. =]

Met worm for dinner and proceed to his house as i didn't feel like going home tt night. Played a round of mahjong with Chong2 Jie3(worm's sis) and Alan(her bf), and lost a few bucks. Slept at around 5am, woke up at 12:50, had lunch at Fav Yishun coffeeshop, before proceeding home. Day is Tuesday(today), around late afternoon. Called up HexianGu, to bring some things i left back in camp on Sat. Turns out that they are meeting today instead for ktv, woah.... so now i'm going to meet them for ktv at Clementi Partyworld at 7pm... singing ktv in a row for 3 days... my record!

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Saturday, May 08, 2004

A short tally of feelings

It's now 4:47am in the morning and I'm at Jay's house, updating my OD. Walked back from the coffeeshop near Chua Chu Kang interchange, the rain is letting up now, had dinner with Gigi yesterday at yishun macdonalds. Hmm.. i feel like we don't have much to talk about nowadays. At the end of dinner cum chit chatting, it feels to me like we didn't have dinner at all, that nothing happened, like the date was fake, empty, meaningless. I wonder what she feels. Is it a sign that we might not be compaitable afterall? Or is it due to the blues that is bugging me recently?

A couple weeks ago, i designed and printed out a rough calendar for the months of April, May, June and July, the reason for it is to keep track of my daily spending, and the amount of time that i used for practicing guitar. Guess what? It didn't work out. Haha. Born slacker. Well at least i tried. *shrugs*

I realized something about myself which i think is very true, but i don't know whether it holds for others. It seems like when i have an interest in a particular girl, the initial fire is always strong, my level of interest is strong and the motivation to keep things going is there(if you get what i mean), but as the subject in topic and i progress closer, the curiousity dies down and the level of interest decreases, and arranging a date starts to become a chore. I also realise that the girls i like are usually Icy cool on the exterior, coincidence or preference? Is this my destiny? Am i destined to be like the fire in the cold winter night, warm and ablazing, keeping the cold away, only to turn into cinders when the season ends and the ice have melted...

Hmm. anyway, Jay recieved a letter from CMPB today, he is scheduled to enlist on the tenth of July unless he passes his NAFA/IPPT test! Haha, guys with sports background like him shouldn't have a problem with the test, provided he is coupled with some determination to train up. Train hard Bro!

Have not been updating OD for some time past recently, will try to write more...

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寂寞等待

缘分让你我相爱,为设么我们会悲哀,而每次当你不在,环境令我感到挫败

你把爱情当作买卖,你说要给我个交代,我却一直在等待,你承诺过我的未来

泪水在无止境的等待,由谁静止它的悲哀,它代表的是寂寞的忍耐,却一次一次被伤害,始终流成
了泪海。。。

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Friday, May 07, 2004

Job worries ended

Yay, an agency called up today. I'll be starting work on the 17th doing data entry for a factory in woodlands. It's a japanese factory operating 365days/yr 24/7, dunno producing some semiconducter parts. Meanwhile, i'll be part timing at SSC for a few days a week, for some pocket money. Finally a big worry off my mind...

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Tuesday, May 04, 2004

2 day stint in SSC

Been to the SSC (singapore swimming club) at kallang/geylang area over the weekend as a stand-in bartender.. rates is 7/hr, the job is ok.. at least i'm spending my time doing something constructive instead of wasting it away... Most of the permanent staff there are malaysians... folks trying to make an honest living to support themselves/their familes. This makes me realise that i shouldn't take my privilleges as a citizen for granted. Life shouldn't be taken for granted. Hmm... maybe we singaporeans should try to be less critical of things and others.

Meanwhile, i have been neglecting my guitar ever since i Ord.. which is close to 3 mths... god knows when i'll finish the whole course... Speaking of neglecting, i feel as if i'm neglecting gigi n myself, haven't seen her for 2 weeks already... sigh~ i really should call her out, the absence is not going to make our relationship progress...
hmm.. tmr will be job searching day AGAIN, i'm really getting tired of all these, if i still have no luck tomorrow, i think i'll accept the offer to work at SSC for the remaining 2 mths.. although the pay is albeit low iMo, abt 1k for 6day/wk work, wkends compulsory... hmm.. gotta think abt it..

Anywaz, took a test just now at http://www.naucon.net/misc/tests/love_test01.htm

1. You are attracted to those who are warm and obedience.

2. In the process of courtship, the approach that would make you feel irresistable is moods-
swing, blow hot and cold in love, vacillate.

3. The impression you would like to give to your lover is loyal, faithful, never change.

4. You don't like it when your partner is emotional and/or too moody; and you don't know how to please him/her.

5. The kind of relationship you would like to build with your partner is one that you care not only about the present but also the future with your partner, a long-lasting relationship that you can grow with.

6. You care about the society and morality, you won't do anything wrong after marriage.

7. You always want to get married, but in fact, you don't even know what it really is.

8. At this moment, you don't have the thirst for love, you can't do anything for it, you won't fall for it easily.

I don't think it's accurate anywaz.

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