A short tally of feelings

It's now 4:47am in the morning and I'm at Jay's house, updating my OD. Walked back from the coffeeshop near Chua Chu Kang interchange, the rain is letting up now, had dinner with Gigi yesterday at yishun macdonalds. Hmm.. i feel like we don't have much to talk about nowadays. At the end of dinner cum chit chatting, it feels to me like we didn't have dinner at all, that nothing happened, like the date was fake, empty, meaningless. I wonder what she feels. Is it a sign that we might not be compaitable afterall? Or is it due to the blues that is bugging me recently?

A couple weeks ago, i designed and printed out a rough calendar for the months of April, May, June and July, the reason for it is to keep track of my daily spending, and the amount of time that i used for practicing guitar. Guess what? It didn't work out. Haha. Born slacker. Well at least i tried. *shrugs*

I realized something about myself which i think is very true, but i don't know whether it holds for others. It seems like when i have an interest in a particular girl, the initial fire is always strong, my level of interest is strong and the motivation to keep things going is there(if you get what i mean), but as the subject in topic and i progress closer, the curiousity dies down and the level of interest decreases, and arranging a date starts to become a chore. I also realise that the girls i like are usually Icy cool on the exterior, coincidence or preference? Is this my destiny? Am i destined to be like the fire in the cold winter night, warm and ablazing, keeping the cold away, only to turn into cinders when the season ends and the ice have melted...

Hmm. anyway, Jay recieved a letter from CMPB today, he is scheduled to enlist on the tenth of July unless he passes his NAFA/IPPT test! Haha, guys with sports background like him shouldn't have a problem with the test, provided he is coupled with some determination to train up. Train hard Bro!

Have not been updating OD for some time past recently, will try to write more...