A lonely Season Sun 3:37am

Dear Diary,

Just did a short quiz to see whether i am more artistic or scientific. http://www.passionup.com/fun/fun4414.htm

"Neither your left brain nor your right brain are dominate. With few exceptions, you use both sides equally and have ability in both. In many ways, you have the best of both worlds, because you don't see things from a narrow viewpoint, you're even tempered, balanced, and you have a good head on your shoulders."

Hmm... seems v true to me, i'd excelled at maths n science when i was a kid(not a teen), then took an interest in the Arts as i was promoted to upper secondary, i always feel a tinge of pity everytime i think... ~sigh~ why did i discover my interest in the Arts so late.. especially the music part... I first discovered my fascination for chinese pop songs when i was primary 3 or 4, at my grandma's house when i heard the song by Huang2 An1, <新鸳鸯蝴蝶梦>, ever since then, i started listening to my uncle's Jacky cheung, Jimmy lin's CDs.. can say that this 2 were my 1st favs.... very meaningful lyrics some of these old songs have... ahh... suddenly tot of a old jimmy lin's song.. it goes like this..

昨天华山论剑 今天决战竞争 原来世界竟然那么小
去年你是天王 今年我是至尊 谁是谁非谁又能分清
飞来飞去 飞过高山飞过云朵看我多逍遥
爱来爱去 今天爱你明天爱他到底谁爱我
他们说人生一出戏又何必太认真 ......(forgot the rest, will edit it again when i remember...)

really find it extremely meaningful...and the mood of the song plus the singer's soothing voice, when listening to the song.. it can bring peace to a disturbed soul.
I picked up my first guitar and plucked a thing officially four years ago, at the age of seventeen, when i realized striking a chord with your own fingers on a woodwind stringed instrument can sound so melodious and resonant. I began to take interest in the guitar and played for leisure when i had the chance. Owned my 1st guitar a yr plus later, officially took up classical guitar on Sep 2002, at Cristofori with Mr Tan Ser Soon, and 19 months later, now at Grade 3... a distance from my target grade 8..

Actually my the instrument i really would love to learn is the piano, but alas fate does not work well with interests, and being a financially poor dude as I am, piano learning is out of the question. ~Sigh~ sad... But when my finance allows it, i'll definately take up piano, provided during that time, i am not too old.(so old liao still go n learn classical piano... paiseh la haha).

Hmm... just had a talk with Enen on msn.. something she said really touched my heart very deeply, she can't feel the 诚意 and 真诚 in me as a person, as a human being, u have to have these 2 and to 真实待人。 it means Sincerity and honestly, to be true to yourself and others(for readers who can't understand chinese[:) "Be true to yourself" many people can say this, but how many truely can achieve it in the true sense of the saying? I wonder. Anywaz, thanks to enen who bothered to chat with me on a lonely night.

-不是在每个漆黑的夜里，我都会感到孤寂但你偏偏在我需要你的夜里，填补了寂寞的空虚

4:29am