Sleep will set me free... from senseless rantings.

Apparently I've been too kind-hearted as of lately, and too frank perhaps. Being straightforward doesn't always pay off in this world. In fact, it usually does the opposite. But at least it's better than being hypocritical.

Hate is a powerful emotion. It can be extremely destructive should anyone attempt to manipulate it. Masks grow on people when there is hatred. It is like a living fungus, surviving by enveloping logic and real love, preventing nutrients from reaching them. Attempts to break the mask, if unsuccessful, will only result in the emergence of an even uglier mask.

I've always been a believer of trusting your own senses and feelings when it comes to judging a person. Logic may fail you, rationality may elude you, but your own senses and feelings will usually not betray you. That is my belief. Two conflicting emotions in my mind are clashing, but they have been gone recently. Just like two people who are quarrelling, and suddenly they hear a proceeding parade through the window and stop their quarrel. For the moment, they stand shoulder to shoulder like best friends watching the parade, forgetting their quarrel. For the moment. But the quarrel is not forgotten, just postponed, just like the two conflicting emotions in my mind. Nevertheless, I welcome the break.

The past week has been busy of late, yet I am resoundingly calm. Calm is the mind, lost is the soul, and weak is the body. I've came to a sudden realization, a simple yet brutally true realization. The fear to confront hatred may be the underlying reason for my inability to hate. How can somebody understand hatred without being able to feel it?

My whole existing being is like a whirling dust ball of confusion. Formless yet unbreakable. I reckon if I continue to indulge and delvge into the depths of raw emotion, I'll probably go insane. Curiousity kills the cat, they say.

Hope will set me free.

A simple life will set me free.

Living in opacity will set me free.

Death will set me free.

I need some sleep...

...before I go insane.

Sleep will set me free.

P/s: Sorry Eush, i'm not going to study for audio. Blame kenso if you want, but i know you are incapable of blaming anybody. *smirk*

P/s/s: My mind is in a mess.

P/s/s/s: Muahahahahahaha!

p/s/s/s/s: Shut up.