Semi-deranged State of mind

Dear Diary,

Here i am again. How have you been? I guess you can't answer me... *sighs* Over the past year, hearing my rants about life... it must have been tough on you. I have something to tell you, I wonder if you are a human being, will you be still as willing to listen to me? Actually, being a friend is not hard at all. You just need to listen. Everybody has their problems. Who can't talk about their lives? Talking about yourself is easy. Everyone likes attention. It's the listening part. Who is really willing to share in your problems? To lend a sincere support? Sometimes friends may not be able to help in realistic terms, but at least they are willing to listen...... it's all about the companionship...

Anyway, i told you i've got something to tell you. I think i'm treading on dangerous waters. I'm missing someone. I haven't really missed someone for a long time. The dangerous thing is that i don't think it is just a mere infatuation. I'm deeply attracted to her. Talking about serious liking here. I don't know... How does she think of me? I'm not really sure too. My first love once told me, "...What defines a couple actually? People nowadays are like... you want companionship? i give you companionship. you want support? i give you support. You want intimacy? I give you intimacy. So what is really love?..."
That coming from a fifteen year-old girl...... i really liked listening to her because just like me then... she thinks a lot. Wow, suddenly i realize that i really did think a lot of cheem stuff during my 14-18 days... A LOT. Anyway, well... suddenly i have nothing to blog about... So i shall conclude.

Thanks again Dear Diary, for relieving me once again... =]

P/S: Sometimes i wonder whether i'm psycho. I think i'm weird in some ways. My attitudes and opinions on certain things, but my chionging buddy used to always say to me when i'm high, "If you can still walk straight and ponder whether you are drunk, chances are you are not drunk yet". So perhaps chances are i'm not psycho afterall...